My bro called me on Sunday evening to inform that daddy (uncle) has passed away. My heart sank and i feel reali sad but was not able to let out my sadness.. Finally his sufferings has stopped and mummy no longer has to bear all the burden on her shoulders. It must have been hard on her all these months.. Tmrw i have to go for the funeral and will be on leave. My mum seems to be lost in thoughts thinking abt my daddy (uncle) that has passed away.

At this moment, i cant explain my feelings.. I feel scared, terrified and im not able to go to sleep.. I have this problem of insomnia whenever i go for funerals.. I hate this feeling.. its a feeling that i have difficulty overcoming.. i tried to pray hard to Allah to let me sleep in peace but i was still unable to.. i reali cant wait for morning so i can go to work and forget all that happened today.. Funerals were never a nice thing for me.. I reali pity my mother coz she has to stay awake to calm me down so im able to fall asleep but its still not working.. God, pls take all the unhappy moments i had today from my heart and tenangkan la fikiran hambamu ini.. And looking at my uncle that passed away so young at the age of 53 i realise that life is indeed short and evryone ought to find peace and the right path of life that is blessed by Allah.. I reali feel insaf and intend to get myself closer to Allah..